By way of biography, she is inher 20’s and a single mom, dealing with all of that. And then there was something she was holdingback. The first sign of trouble was onJanuary 6. I didn’t see this until afterthe fact, but I will mostly let it speak for itself:
Over and over againit's reaffirmed that I'm a pathetic and worthless person that no one will everput themselves out there for.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 7, 2013
First time in twoand a half years -- since leaving my ex -- I let myself be vulnerable tosomeone and got exactly what I deserved.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 7,2013
I mean, really, Iwas enough of an idiot to believe him the zillion times he told me he was goingto leave his wife for me.
— sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake)January 7,2013
I believed all thatshit about him wanting to be with me, about him wanting to be in Cupcake'slife. He even booked a flight to see me.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 7,2013
But "lol nojk." Silly Cake. Who were you to ever think you're worth paying any mindto? Why would this time be any different?
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 7,2013
The only thing I'veever had to offer is unwavering loyalty to those I love and I constantly gettaken advantage of.
— sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake) January 7,2013
I'm an idiot. Ishould've known this would happen. Course he wasn't going to leave his wife nomatter how many times he told me he loved me.
—sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake) January 7,2013
Who am I to compete with that? I have nothingto offer.
— sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake) January7, 2013
I don't know if hiswife still stalks my timeline. But if they're working on their marriage shedeserves the whole truth and nothing but.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 7, 2013
I've been in herposition. I went back to my ex after he carried on a sexual relationship with a17yo girl when I was 7mos pregnant.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 7,2013
And I obsessivelysave all communications. If she wants the whole truth, I'll give it to her viae-mail.
— sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake) January 7,2013
In the meantime, Ihave wine and another reminder that I'm a worthless piece of shit who will diealone. Awesome! Happy 2013!!
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 7,2013
And then it got ominous:
Goodbye
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 7,2013
That was at almost 10 p.m. And then we get the next tweet some an hour later:
Someone from herewith my name and who knows I have a landline called the police. I'm going tothe hospital voluntarily. Fare thee well.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January7, 2013
Going intoinpatient. Don't know when or if I'll be back. Bye.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 7,2013
And then it was radio silence... Until today. And you will see why I feel comfortable saving this for posterity:
Update: Cake has written to me asking to have her real name removed,
which I unquestioningly honor. So I will
revert to quoting all but her name from her first tweet back: “My name is [omitted]
and I have a mental illness. Panic disorder, major depressive
disorder,generalized anxiety. The trifecta.”
It unfortunate she didn’t feel comfortable saying her name, but that is
not her fault, but the fault of the looks on the net who make it this way.
These diagnoses donot define me as a human being, but they are a part of me. And I struggle everyday.
— sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
If my opennessinspires someone to get help, then I will be happy knowing that I have potentiallysaved a life.
— sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
I've spoken atlength about the stigmatization of mental illness in this country and how it'shush-hush swept under the rug.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
My most recentdepressive episode began in around June. I let it slide for months and monthsand months hoping it would go away.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
But it didn't. Ididn't reach out to those who love me and support me because I wasashamed.
— sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
It felt like astep-back after working so hard to manage my panic disorder, after overcomingpost-partum depression over two years ago.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
I don't want todiscuss the recent drama in my personal life. That's the past. It was merelythe straw that broke the camel's back.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
This would havehappened eventually, whether or not I had foolishly hung my hopes on arelationship that would never work.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
And then she verified my worstfears from her earlier tweets:
Yes, I attemptedsuicide. But the thought of my three-year-old son finding me in the morning iswhat made me reach out for that phone.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 14, 2013
I haven't beentaking care of myself. I've allowed isolation and loneliness to define merather than make me stronger.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
I had stoppedtaking my medications regularly. I had stopped going to my therapist. I hadstopped showering. Eating. Taking care of myself.
—sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
I had focused so much on my work and takingcare of my son that I completely ignored a depressive episode germinating forover six months.
— sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
But I am here. I amhappy to be alive. Your support and your prayers got me through this. I am soblessed to have you all.
— sevenlayercake (@sevenlayercake) January 14,2013
Again, I hope thatmy being frank and open will lead someone else to get the help they need. Wetreat diabetes. We treat asthma.
— sevenlayercake(@sevenlayercake) January14, 2013
So there you go. There are no guarantees for the future, butshe looks like she has pulled out of her tailspin and that is a huge deal. Or maybe more precisely her child helped pullher out as well as some real life friends. I have dealt with enough single mothers to know how to the child and themother, they are literally the whole world.
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